New Years Goals

I usually never make new years resolutions for myself, or when I do, it's never specific such as "lose weight, get a job, etc..." So I thought maybe this year will be different. Here's my new years resolutions/goals (since I tend to not always follow them):

In no particular order:

1. Stop picking at my skin (touching too).
I had the worse acne of my life last Oct and my skin is still suffering from its sensitivity now. Now in Jan. it became bad again because I stop taking the doxycycline antibiotics that my doc Rx'ed me. I read that it can give me other problems if I take it long term so I've decided that I don't want to risk that.

I think my breakout is due to my obsession with my skin. I constantly pick at it and layer it with concealers, moisturizers, foundation, and over use cleansing products. So, my goal is to do the bare minimum (washing twice a day, blotting in between, and light eye make up only) and hopefully my skin will respond. I'll still wear cover up if I'm going somewhere where photos will be taken (hmm although sometimes it's hard to guess), but for everyday wear, I'm going to "suck it up" and go out with bare face (spf when needed).

2. Run 2-3 times a week and push ups before bed.
I want to lose up to 15-20 lbs. and be more toned. I'm not expecting myself to reach this goal by the end of the year b/c I want to think realistically, but it is my ultimate goal to be "sexy thin" haha. I also want to be able to hike during my annual camping trips without feeling I need to run to catch up with the rest of my friends. I'm tired of being the lagger of the group.

3. Eat less and eat as healthy as possible.
I think I've been losing the weight b/c I've been eating less than I normally do. I constantly remind myself that "this" is not going to be the last time I'll have this particular meal so I shouldn't eat it that way. Before, I would eat meals as if they were my last b/c my bottomless-pit-boyfriend would always pick at my food or stare it like a starving puppy after he finished his portion, so in order to deter him from eating my food, I'd scarf it down. And of course afterwards, I feel bloated and gain several pounds. Lately, I'd give him part of my food when I begin to feel full. And a side note: I love my bf and all, and I believe he shouldn't eat so much, but if he doesn't care about his eating habits, then I can't force him to do something he's not willing to do.

4. Learn Flash
I've been saying this to myself forever and it's time to do something about it. I'm a graphic designer after all and Flash is something that needs to be learned for me. My main interest is print work in this field, but it's still a good skill to know. The problem is that it looks so overwhelming.

5. Use up the cosmetics I own now instead of buying new ones, and buy less.
I think I'm almost at the line of being a collector of cosmetics because all last year that's all I mainly bought. But I'm the type that's practical and the cliche line of "what's the point of having it if you're not going to use it" is something that I value since it's one of my pet peeves of people (especially if I'm the one who gave them that gift). I shouldn't be a hypocrite and follow my belief. So far, this goal hasn't sunk in yet. Baby steps for now.

6. Get a graphic design job that's not web work. I love print!
I love the feeling of being able to create something that can be touched as well as see. Something about creating and being able to physically hold my work in my hands is something I like about print over virtual so hopefully I'll be able to find a job this year that satisfy that, even if it's entry level work, which it will be.

7. Be more confident and talk more.
Many people see me as shy/reserved and I hate it, but that has always been apart of me. But I actually don't see myself as shy or reserved because I know people who's way worse than me. But usually people feel that about me during first impressions. This needs to change, but I just have the hardest time changing this aspect about myself.

8. Dress in different styles.
This goal goes along with my losing weight goal. The more I lose weight, the better I want to dress to show off my body. I think I dressed pretty average, but I think as an artist, I should dress with some style and color instead of everyday jeans and a sweatshirt. I want to mix it up and actually start wearing dresses, skirts, leggings, flats, heels, etc. Forever 21, Zara, H&M, Charlotte Russe will be my new go-to clothes stores.

9. Drive.
Unlike many people out there, I fear driving. I hear about all these freak accidents in the news and it just really scares the crap outta me to drive. I do drive when I'm forced to, but it's usually my boyfriend who drives me around (yes I'm one of those girls, but with a reason). Driving is apart of life so I need to suck it up and be more confident at it.